ACCEPTANCE didn't come easy for me. I would say that it is an ongoing process til you get over it. It varies from person to person. I'm still going thru it. Is better to face the loss now than later.
Journey of grief has thought me that acceptance can never come easy. It's not easy to make peace with the loss but how long would I want to be in denial? It wouldn't change a thing either.
I'm trying to accept the new reality. To be honest, I never felt that it is okay to have loved one loss. I learn to accept the fact that reality can't be changed. Nobody likes changes but circumstances always get the best out of us. I have to adapt to 2 changes. #1 is the loss of loved one. #2 is the Movement Control Order (MCO) due to Covid-19. It feels like I fell on the road and a heavy vehicle ran over me. I have to adapt to the environment no matter how much I hated it.
On the other hand, I'm also telling myself that accepting doesn't mean that ignore the loss. It simply doesn't mean that I forget about it. I learn to embrace their presence by cherishing the moment we spent together. Although it is hard but taking it one day at a time would be doable. Acceptance can be painful as it often reminds me of him especially seeing his things around the house.
People keep telling me to accept the fact and I know I have to but emotions and reality takes time to sit in especially is a shocking news. As I'm writing this, I still can hardly wrap it around my head. Every time I see his things, it reminds me that he's in heaven :')
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